Thursday, November 27, 2008

Thankful...



It's been a week or two since I have last posted, but I think that sometimes it takes the holiday (or the holidays that are actually coming up) to slow down and appreciate some of the more important things... I guess if I were to unplug completely I could really reflect, but lets be honest, I am not really the type of person to unplug completely... but nevertheless...

Today, my Dad suggested that we play a family game of pick-up basketball down at Anneli's school. I was slightly reluctant to do anything, as I usually like to veg out and empty my brain on days off of work. I've also been into my own stuff, which has caused me to focus almost entirely on this part of my life and my own inadequacies... I feel like sometimes I just view myself as just going through the motions because this other part of me is so dedicated to this obsession that I can't bring myself to get over. I will, but as of now, I haven't yet.

I feel like I got into some daydream montage in my head, like the movies, and literally my friends, family, co-workers have to snap me out of it. But today, since it was Thanksgiving, I decided to push myself out of this funk and really authentically be present with my family this holiday (OMG - that sounds like some crazy Oprah-esque rhetoric).

And as we played basketball, we laughed, joked around and had an overall good time. For the first time in a while, my thoughts were not dominated by this cancer-like obsession, I was more focused on being me and trying to be happy. That is my goal from now on - to be happy and to attempt to be authentically present in my happiness.

I am thankful for my family this year (and every year). I am thankful for my parents, still being married and providing a solid base for myself and my siblings. I am thankful for all of my siblings and the relationships we have. Sometimes it is difficult based on schedules, distance, etc. but I am glad that we have grown up enough to be friends and sibling and there isn't a huge strain on the relationships that we have. I have some friends who can't stand their siblings, not us. I am thankful for Anneli. I am thankful that she came into our lives. For all of her crazy making, and there is quite a bit of it, she has given me an appreciation of how easy my life is, but her ability to dust herself off everyday and to try again in the face of all of these challenges, gives me the strength to keep trying in my career.

In closing, I hope everybody finds something that they are thankful for. Happy Thanksgiving, and lets get ready for the $hopping $eason...

Sunday, November 16, 2008

OMG...OMG...OMG...

So, of course, since I live in the bay area, I yet again was not allowed to see the Steelers game. And, they were playing the San Diego Chargers, so by rights, I really should have been able to see this game. But alas, I could not because of the stupid bay area rule that do not allow games to competing with the 49ers home games.

So, instead, I had to watch the 49ers stomp the Rams (even though they are coached by a guy my parents went to college with) and I am stuck watching the Gamecast on ESPN.com.

The Gamecast did not do the game justice! To see the highlights (including the botched call by the officials) you have to go to: http://www.nfl.com/gamecenter?game_id=29685&season=2008&displayPage=tab_gamecenter

TP was so robbed... I can't even find the words to say it.

But I heart my Steelers... we came away with a W. It feels good to be 7-3...

Saturday, November 15, 2008

This sucks...

My car isn't quite paid off yet (I am so close)... but I just had to drop some serious coin to get the front brakes replaced. I hate it when you have to incur expenses on something that is not even paid off yet. Grrr... Oh, and by the way, the stupid new manager at my apartment had the new painting team come and power wash the apartment building today (said it wouldn't happen until Monday) and it proceeded to get my freshly washed car that was parked in the car port completely dirty. Now I have to go to Ducky's, Lozano's or whatever and get it rewashed.... because I suck at getting all of the water spots off. Eh, I'm in Los Altos this weekend... I might just do it myself - since I am attempting to be frugal...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I DID IT!!!!!!


It took my flippin' forever, but I finally finished "As I Lay Dying". The book was really slow, but as part of my own personal campaign to read all of the American Literature that I was too lazy to read in high school/college...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I'm outta here, bitches!

I am off to LA tomorrow after work. This little trek couldn't come at a better time because I am feeling this craziness from work and personally... I just need a break... look out Los Angeles!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Yes We Can


Transcript: Obama's acceptance speech

Remarks of President-Elect Barack Obama-as prepared for delivery
Election Night
Tuesday, November 4th, 2008
Chicago, Illinois


If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible; who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time; who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen; by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the very first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different; that their voice could be that difference.

It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Latino, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled - Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been a collection of Red States and Blue States: we are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It's the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.

It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this day, in this election, at this defining moment, change has come to America.

I just received a very gracious call from Senator McCain. He fought long and hard in this campaign, and he's fought even longer and harder for the country he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine, and we are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader. I congratulate him and Governor Palin for all they have achieved, and I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on that train home to Delaware, the Vice President-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last sixteen years, the rock of our family and the love of my life, our nation's next First Lady, Michelle Obama. Sasha and Malia, I love you both so much, and you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the White House. And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother is watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight, and know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my campaign manager David Plouffe, my chief strategist David Axelrod, and the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics - you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to - it belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington - it began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston.

It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give five dollars and ten dollars and twenty dollars to this cause. It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy; who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep; from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on the doors of perfect strangers; from the millions of Americans who volunteered, and organized, and proved that more than two centuries later, a government of the people, by the people and for the people has not perished from this Earth. This is your victory.

I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century. Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us. There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after their children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage, or pay their doctor's bills, or save enough for college. There is new energy to harness and new jobs to be created; new schools to build and threats to meet and alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America - I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you - we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as President, and we know that government can't solve every problem. But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And above all, I will ask you join in the work of remaking this nation the only way it's been done in America for two-hundred and twenty-one years - block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began twenty-one months ago in the depths of winter must not end on this autumn night. This victory alone is not the change we seek - it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers - in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people.

Let us resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long. Let us remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House - a party founded on the values of self-reliance, individual liberty, and national unity. Those are values we all share, and while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress. As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, "We are not enemies, but friends...though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection." And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn - I may not have won your vote, but I hear your voices, I need your help, and I will be your President too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of our world - our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand. To those who would tear this world down - we will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security - we support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright - tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from our the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity, and unyielding hope.

For that is the true genius of America - that America can change. Our union can be perfected. And what we have already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight is about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing - Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons - because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America - the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs and a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "We Shall Overcome." Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination. And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves - if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment. This is our time - to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American Dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth - that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope, and where we are met with cynicism, and doubt, and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

Yes We Can. Thank you, God bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Monday Night Football

So, we begin another week. Of course I was excited, because my beloved Steelers were on Monday Night Football. And we won... what up! We did lose Ben at the half, but Leftwich totally stepped up - I will give him props for that but in all honestly, I was a little nervous when I saw him warming up. I was definitely missing Charlie Batch. But we pulled it out.

And since we are on the topic of Monday Night Football, can I say how interesting it was to see Obama and McCain being interviewed by Boomer. The worst interviews ever! And, then Boomer totally pulled the same line on both of them. Saying that their football teams were doing well, so that was a good omen. What are you trying to say, Boomer? A co-presidency? Or you are an equal opportunity brown-noser?

Okay, I am off to bed, as I have a big day full of civic duty in the morning.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Matt Nathanson

So last night I went to see Matt Nathanson at the Warfield up the city. I went to this concert because a friend of mine wanted to see The Brake and Repair Method that was opening for Matt. I've heard of Matt and had downloaded a song or two of his, so I thought why not. Since I knew this concert was going on I had downloaded his entire album as well as The Brake and Repair Method. I am definitely now a fan of both. I guess seeing someone in concert may actually be that thing to get your over the hump of being a fan. But it was really awesome and I am really glad that I went to it. Matt is from San Francisco, so the fact that he was playing for his home crowd, I am sure made the concert even better. I always forget how much I love live music until I go and experience it. I am definitely going to keep his name up on my concerts to check out and you should to. He is currently "on the rise" which means that he won't be selling out Shoreline (he didn't even sell out the Warfield) but he has a steady following.