I still haven't found what I'm looking for...

It's the end of the week! Thank goodness... I must say that it has been one hell of a week and I have been forcing myself to relax. I haven't brought my work laptop home at all this week (and those of you who have been around me for the past few months know that this is a very large feat). Still I sit in this apartment full of laundry and papers from before the wedding, I think that I can never totally relax and even when I do relax there is a timer on it.

Take today for instance... I woke up late (grrr...) and raced to work. Stuck in 101 traffic (why when I love 5 miles from the office does it take me a half hour to get to work. I don't get it!), finally get to the office a half hour later than I had intended. I bust my butt with all of these various tasks for each one of our upcoming webcasts. Needless to say, I am exhausted. I get a text from Melissa for dinner this evening, which will be nice, since I need to think about something else other than work.

Within a half hour, my mom calls. As most of you know, I tend to have familial responsibilities that pop up at random times. Since my Dad was in Chicago on business, she needed somebody to follow Anneli around at her class scavenger hunt. Of course, does my little sister get that involved with this? Of course not. She was much more interested in running away anyway.

I guess what I am getting at is that I feel completely run down from pushing myself at work, pushing myself at home, pushing myself with my family, pushing myself with my friendships. On top of that, I have people (okay, really he who shall remain nameless) telling me that I need to start going out and being social. Which really means going out and drinking, which I do pretty well, but I guess the idea of taking on an actual relationship means pushing myself even harder, when what I really should be doing is focusing on me, and trying to get some flippin rest.

Of course, tomorrow is Saturday. Another big day of pushing myself to do things that I rather have somebody else do. I think I have finally realized why people have personal assistants...